Sigh...

Well its been a tricky couple of days. I'm really missing home. Or well, maybe not so much home itself as things like close friendships, family, Western food (also - having my mum cook for me), easy access to English books and being able to communicate and connect easily with the people around me.

I've realized that part of what has been making me feel depressed is just the amount of pressure that I'm putting on myself. I just keep thinking that I have to be the best ever kindergarten teacher, perfect the Chinese language and you know...save the world - all in the next year. I was thinking about it today and I realized...in the past two months I've moved to China, learned to read, write and speak a very basic amount of Chinese and started my first ever "big girl" job...which I'm am mostly teaching myself how to do on the fly. Its not so terrible I guess that I'm still a long way off from having all the friends/skills that I would like to have. I'm not sure why I feel like I have to be such a superhero!

But anyway, all of this to say- please call me/ write to me! I miss you all and I'd love to hear your voice/see your pretty faces on skype/ read email news.

EDIT: I also miss hot showers. And water pressure.